火曜日, 5月 17, 2022

(♪)//165 Kinda' Down⌒☆+゚




You ever get some days where you're feeling your best and then the next day you just want to stay under the covers? Even if nothing really happened? That's how I'm feeling today.

For a few days now, even though I was pretty happy and putting together some cute co*des, I felt a tinge of sad. I never had the best self confidence. Especially while growing up.

So I found ways to kinda' push it back with shopping, cooking/baking, doing full gal coords, learning a language and writing. Basically keeping my mind from falling in that pit. 

But I can only do it for so long before it takes over.

Not feeling good enough, pretty enough, gal enough, a failure, feeling other people are always against you, you're too different from your own friends, etc. Also prob doesn't help that I've been trying to work off weight I put on too...

I think it's important to address this. Especially when I know a bunch of other people that go through this personally. I know it will pass but I sure feel it now. I'm hoping that when things fall together in place a bit more, I won't feel this as often.


Since making this space more into a daily diary, I feel more open about what I write here. Still I'm sorry for the sad post. Here's hoping that getting my feelings more out into the open will help with healing.


3 件のコメント:

  1. Oh darling, I wish I could hug you right now as I know exactly how you feel ;; but I want you to know that you are an amazing gal!!! And do amazing coords!!!! Sending love! <33333

    And please don't ever apologise for writing your thoughts! It's good not to bottle things up <3333

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  2. Awww my darling! I'm so sorry you were feeling this way. I think your super pretty and super gyaru 💖 but I know it's hard to tell yourself that :(

    Take super good kind of yourself 💖

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  3. You're a human <3 It's ok, feel it & take it out of your heart. (I usually feel like that around my period :| )
    Sometimes when we think too much and too serious about ourselves we fall into this hole & really, what me or other readers see is a real person & gal, beyond any "insecurity".
    A hug from me & don't think you're being bad to yourself for writing such thoughts because being good to yourself is actually acknowledging your feelings & you did exactly this, you wanted to hear yourself <3

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