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We've been going to the library to get physical books

I mostly get manga w

But doing this also got me back into reading again (this one is mine)

I never liked digital books

Changing the subject. . . 

I feel like I've been getting stronger and then weaker 

Most days are not great

But I feel like I'm starting to be able to write again

Some days it gets to be too much and I don't want to burden anyone

I can just write and delete or hide

This is my blog but I don't want to fill it with sad things

I've been rereading Tomonya's old blog

She talked so openly about everything including her mental health

In lots of posts she tried her best to still lift up others

Which I guess was trying to do her best for herself 

I feel like I'm not there yet so I won't put more than this here

If I ever will reach that

I've been trying so hard to do better for myself starting with jobs

But I can't even get volunteer work

So I did a lot of shopping including this cute lamp

It makes me happy when it's on

I love stars