I want to keep writing and posting
But it has gotten really difficult recently
It's not about the numbers or lack of
Lots of things are a struggle and I wonder if it's all worth it to continue
No one can make the decisions for me
I just want to give up everything
Just really think no one would miss it if I didn't do anything anymore
Since the dreaded first week of the month at my job is over,
maybe it will be better next time
