I should explain why I disappeared. . .
Life got messed up and it’s out of my control. I might be losing my job here soon. We don’t know what’s going to happen.
Sadly, it all depends on the public. It sucks cause I feel powerless. Hubs is always there to be my support but I hate this feeling like I always do this to him. I know being in a relationship part of it is being each other’s strength but I feel like he always has to put in more to save me.(;_;) I always worked hard so I wouldn’t have anyone else do that. But for some reason I can’t stop this shit from happening.
I can’t tell if it’s just cause of how the world is or I’m really that bad at keeping a job. So for now I’m depending on a temp agency to hopefully help me find something at least part time for now. Till we find out what’s happening with my current job anyway.
Jokingly I always wonder if gals especially are just going back in time to the 90s when a lot were basically homeless and working all sorts of jobs to survive. Are we somehow going back in time to live like they did? This is something that I can at least put a concrete foundation on instead of worrying what my unseen future will be. I can be a poor oldschool/manba gal.
Such a sad way to think so I don’t completely fall apart.
This is def not the life update I wanted to give but it’s what I got right now. Hopefully next time I post will have something better.